Creative Writing

  Complicated Mind By Nabilah Patel Written on the 7th of October 2021 Sitting in a dark corner  Mind wandering to all the dark corners of the brain Drowning in deep thought with the weight of the world on my shoulders  I’m opening up all those dark drawers filled with insecurities  Am I really a good person?  Can i meet all these expectations that are so high? Other people set the bar of perfection so high So why can’t I live up to their greatness?  The answer is I’m not them I’m me, myself and I I’m not meant to be compared to you and them. I’m thinking too hard until my head’s about to burst like a balloon All these thoughts swirling around in my mind. Why are they filled with negativity? Shouldn’t they be filled with proud thoughts of positivity?  All those bullets of lecture and adult conversation hit me with force I’m not a target standing in the middle of the crossfire. I’m a person with thoughts and emotions that could be clouded by jedgement. ...

  'NEW YEAR NEW YOU' WHAT A CRAZY IDEA YOU CAN BE THE SAME PERSON EVEN IF YOU'VE CHANGED SLIGHTLY SINCE LAST YEAR. SOMETIMES WE MIGHT NOT ALWAYS CHANGE IN A POSITIVE WAY SINCE WE HAVE THE GHOSTS OF HARSH WORDS IN THE MAZES OF OUR MIND'S EYE AND IT HAUNTS US UNTIL WE CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT CUZ WE'VE OPENED THE DARK DRAWERS OF SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED A LONG TIME AGO. WELL NEWSFLASH SOME OF THE TIME WORDS CAN HURT THEY CAN CUT DEEP LIKE KNIVES OR HIT YOU SQUARE IN THE CHEST LIKE BULLETS HITTING A TARGET. WE HANG ON TO THEM TO FIGURE OUT WHETHER OR NOT WE'RE GREAT REVOLUTIONARIES IN LIFE BUT EVERYONE'S HUMAN AND YOU CAN BREAK APART INTO A MILLION SHARDS OF GLASS A FEW TIMES IN LIFE IT'S ABOUT HOW YOU BECOME THE BIGGER PERSON AND PICK THOSE PIECES UP AND GLUE THEM BACK TOGETHER UNTIL YOU'RE A STRONGER VERSION OF YOURSELF. JUST REMEMBER IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT IF SOMEONE DOESN'T ACCEPT YOU'RE TRYING TO MOVE ON AND MAKE AMENDS SO YOU CAN BE CIVIL ...

  Lockdown-An Experience Where’s my friend self-advocacy? Hiding underneath my skin Couldn’t come out in arguments Trapped like a caterpillar in a chrysalis. My other friend confidence Died down like fire with it’s embers licking the coals in a fireplace. Where’s that spark of self-esteem? It’s been flushed down the toilet.     I’m trapped in a web of lies People talk when you’re not in their presence. The negativity comes out like a criminal that’s out to get you The angel on my right shoulder is corrupted. My guardian angel has turned into a beast Bombing me with the cold hard truths about myself. Shouldn’t they be positive?   Nah. The truth always hurts It cuts deep like a knife that’s been twisted in your gut When you know that people have judged your character harshly They shouldn’t judge a book by it’s cover. They need to read between the lines.   In corona there’s always fights Lockdown shouldn’t be th...

  IT'S HARD TO FIND YOURSELF IN THAT DARK MAZE OF YOUR HEAD AND YOU KNOW YOU MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO COME BACK FROM IT AS EASILY AS OTHER PEOPLE. MAYBE YOU'VE LOST IT ALL TO SOMEONE WHO THINKS THEY'RE POWERFUL AND THEY HAVE SOME TYPE OF HOLD OVER YOU SO YOU CAN'T FIND THAT POWERFUL VOICE TO STOP THEM BREATHING DOWN YOUR NECK. IT'S TIME FOR YOU TO MAN UP AND PULL YOURSELF BACK TOGETHER EVEN IF YOU'VE WASTED YOUR BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS TRYING TO PLEASE A PERSON WHO MIGHT NOT BE FIGHTING FOR YOU IN YOUR CORNER. IT'S HIGH TIME THAT YOU GO ON THAT JOURNEY OF SELF-DISCOVERY TO FIND OUT WHO YOU ARE, WHO YOU CAN BE, AND WHO YOU'RE MEANT TO BE. IT'S ALSO ABOUT FINDING THAT VERSION OF YOURSELF THAT WAS PASSIONATE, FILLED WITH ALL THE CONFIDENCE IN THE WORLD, OR THAT PERSON WHO HELD THEMSELVES TO A HIGH STANDARD WHEN IT CAME TO BEING SURE OF THEMSELVES AND HAVING HIGH SELF-ESTEEM SO YOU COULD FEEL THAT UNFORGETTABLE MOMENT OF BEING ON TOP OF THE WORLD.SO WHO ARE YO...

  EVERYBODY THINKS THAT GIVING CRITICISM TO A PERSON IS SUPPOSED TO BUILD THEM UP OR MAKE THEM BETTER BUT THAT'S NOT WHAT IT DOES IT MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH CUZ YOU'RE BEING PICKED APART AND BEING ANALYSED LIKE A MECHANICAL OBJECT GETS PULLED APART AND THERE'S ALL THESE PROBLEMS UNDERNEATH IT THAT NEED TO BE SORTED OUT BUT THAT'S NOT HOW PEOPLE WORK. IT TAKES A LOT FOR A PERSON TO FEEL LIKE THEY DON'T MATTER CUZ THERE'S OTHER PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE SO FERFECT THAT THEY MIGHT NOT HAVE THAT MANY FLAWS SO WHEN IT COMES TO YOU YOU'RE COMPARED TO THEM AND GIVEN CRITICISM BASED ON HOW YOU LOOK OR WHAT YOUR SKIN LOOKS LIKE BUT YOU SHOULDN'T LET IT GET TO YOU AND EAT YOU UP ON THE INSIDE. YOU NEED TO MASTER THE ART OF THE POKER FACE SO NO ONE CAN SEE YOUR LIP QUIVERING OR THOSE TRAITOROUS TEARS ESCAPE FROM YOUR EYELASHES CUZ YOU'RE SO OVERWHELMED OR OVERSENSITIVE. OK I'VE BEEN RAMBLING ON FOR AGES SO I'M GONNA GIVE Y'ALL ...

  IT'S A HORRIBLE FEELING THAT EATS YOU UP ON THE INSIDE WHEN YOUR RIDE OR DIE TELLS YOU SOMEONE CHATTED ABOUT YOU WHEN YOU'RE IN ANOTHER ROOM OF THE HOUSE ESPECIALLY WHEN YOUR BUSINESS GETS AIRED ON VIDEO CALL AND BOUNCES AROUND FROM ONE CITY TO THE OTHER THEN YOU'RE FIGURING OUT THAT THE CLAWS ARE OUT AND YOU'RE NOT IN A SAFE ZONE ANYMORE YOU'RE IN ENEMY TERRITORY SO YOU GOTTA BE SNEAKY AND FIND OUT ALL OF THE FACTS BEFORE ONE OF THE MEMBERS OF YOUR FAMIGLIA-FAMILY TURNS ON YOU LIKE A FLASH IF THEY THINK YOU'VE RUINED THEIR TIME ON YOUR HOME TURF SO THEY TELL THEIR SON TO TELL THEIR DAUGHTER HOW YOU FUCKED UP WHEN IT'S NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS AND IT NEEDS TO STAY IN THE FOUR WALLS OF A HOUSE THAT'S IN YOUR HOME TURF CUZ IT'S DOWNRIGHT HUMILIATING IF YOU FIND OUT THE FACTS THAT SOMEONE HAS TARNISHED YOUR WHOLE CHARACTER BEHIND YOUR BACK WHEN YOU'VE NOT EVEN CAUSED THAT MUCH DRAMA JUST CUZ YOU'VE TAKEN MATTERS INTO YOUR OWN HANDS AND TRY TO DE...

  I'VE BEEN THROUGH A HELL AND BACK SITUATION FACING THESE BOMBS FROM A PERSON WHO THOUGHT THAT THEY COULD TRUST ME COMPLETELY BUT I FUCKED UP THERE SO ALL OF LAST MONTH I HAD MY CHARACTER JUDGED AND THAT SUCKS SO EVEN AFTER GIVING THEM A THOUSAND APOLOGIES THEY NEVER LISTENED AND PUT THEIR WALLS UP IN FRONT OF ME UNTIL I'M DROWNING IN PRE-TEEN ATTITUDE, SASS AND THESE TRUTH BOMBS EXPLODING IN MY FACE AND SHIT HIT THE FAN PRETTY FAST BUT ENOUGH OF MY PERSONAL ISSUES ON THIS SUBJECT SO NOW IT NEEDS TO GO BACK TO THE GENERALISATION OF THE TOPIC AT HAND SO PEOPLE WILL THROW THESE TRUTH BOMBS AT YOU THEY BRING UP YOUR UGLIST CHARACTERISTICS AND IT'S LIKE SOMEONE IS THROWING A STONE COLD BUCKET OF WATER OVER YOUR HEAD UNTIL YOU'RE DROWNING IN DARKENED THOUGHT JUST BECAUSE YOU'VE PISSED A PERSON OFF BY LETTING SENSITIVE INFO BACK TO THEIR PARENTAL IN THE AFTERMATH OF DRAMA THAT YOU'VE CREATED SO THE MOODY PRE-TEEN GETS ON YOUR CASE AND STARTS FORGETTING YOU'RE OLD...