NOT GIVING A SHIT ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE

 A MONTH AGO SOMEONE ENLIGHTENED ME WITH ONE OF THE GREATEST FACTS OF ALL TIME AND IT WAS 'I LOVE IT THAT YOU DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYONE' OR SOMETHING AND I WAS LIKE WHOA SLOW DOWN HOLD THE FLIPPING PHONE I DO GIVE A SHIT ABOUT A VERY ELITE LIST OF PEOPLE IN LIFE AND I JUST DON'T SHOW IT CUZ WHEN YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH HELL AND BACK TO FIND OUT THE KIND OF PERSON YOU ARE AND THE ONE EVERYONE EXPECTS YOU TO BE. SO YEAH WHEN I FOUND OUT THIS FACT I WAS CRUSHED CUZ EVERYONE WHO GOES THROUGH SOME TYPE OF TRAUMA IN LIFE WANTS TO SHUT THE WORLD OUT AND KEEP THEIR WALLS UP AS HIGH AS THE CLOUDS IN THE SKY. SOMETIMES AFTER SOMEONE WHO'S CLOSE TO YOU RIPS YOUR SOUL APART AND HURTS YOU SO BADLY THAT YOU CAN'T GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT WHETHER YOU'RE GOOD ENOUGH TO BE IN THEIR WORLD OR NOT SUCKS. EVERYTIME YOU THINK SOMEONE'S ON YOUR SIDE AND THEY'RE ROOTING FOR YOU AND YOU GET YOUR HOPES UP BUT THEY NEVER END UP BEING ON YOUR SIDE IN THE END AND YOU QUESTION WHY IS IT SO IMPORTANT TO GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THAT PERSON CUZ IT DRAINS YOU PHYSICALLY EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY UNTIL YOU MIGHT NOT EVEN BE 100 PERCENT OK ANYMORE. OK I'VE RAMBLED ON FOR AGES NOW  I'M GONNA LAY DOWN SOME AMAZING ADVICE SO SIT BACK AGAINST THOSE FLUFFY PILLOWS AND GRAB THOSE BLANKETS AND SIT BACK AND RELAX WITH SOME TERRY'S ORANGE CHOCOLATE AND LISTEN LOUD AND CRYSTAL CLEAR 'GIVING A SHIT ABOUT PEOPLE MEANS YOU CARE ABOUT THEM AND SOMETIMES IT'S HARD TO SHOW IT IF YOU'VE BUILT YOUR WALLS UP AROUND YOURSELF AND YOU'RE TRYING TO GET BACK OUT OF YOUR SHELL BUT YOU CAN'T. DON'T BE AFRAID TO SAY Y'KNOW WHAT I DO CARE AND I'M ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT YOU CUZ I'M NOT ALWAYS LOOKING OUT FOR NUMBER 1 MOST OF THE TIME. IT'S NOT ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT PEOPLE THINK YOU NEED TO SEEK THEIR APPROVAL IT'S ABOUT YOU CHECKING YOURSELF AND CHANGING YOUR WAYS TO MAKE YOURSELF AND OTHER PEOPLE HAPPY.' OKAY I'VE PROBABLY RAMBLED ON FOR AGES NOW BUT IT'S KINDA TRUE CUZ SOMETIMES PEOPLE THINK YOU'RE NOT WORRYING ABOUT THEM WHEN YOU ARE SO WHY ARE THEY QUESTIONING YOU ABOUT GIVING A SHIT ABOUT THEM? I WOULDN'T KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT CUZ I ALWAYS WORRY AND THINK ABOUT PEOPLE IN THE FAMIGLIA YOU'RE ASSOCIATED WITH BUT EVERYONE'S DIFFERENT SO DON'T SHOW THEM ONE WAY OF CARING SHOW THEM MILLIONS OF DIFFERENT WAYS BUT SOMETIMES IT'S STILL NOT ENOUGH YOU'LL HAVE DAYS WHERE YOU JUST DON'T WANNA INTERACT WITH ANYONE AND YOU JUST DO YOUR OWN THING AND THEY'LL BE LIKE YOU DON'T GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT ME BUT LIFE IS MESSY UNEXPECTED AND COMPLICATED SO WHY DO PEOPLE CARE ABOUT WHAT YOU'RE NOT DOING FOR THEM ALL THE DAMN TIME? MY ANSWERE TO THAT IS i DON'T KNOW. BUT THIS STATEMENT THAT REALLY BUGS ME WHENEVER SOMEONE SAYS SOMETHING IS 'IT IS WHAT IT IS' WHEN YOU CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT A SITUATION QUICKLY INSTEAD OF NOT BOTHERING. IT'S EXHAUSTING MOST OF THE TIME BUT I'LL STOP RANTING ABOUT IT WHEN PEOPLE THINK THAT IT'S ENOUGH. I'LL LAY DOWN SOME AWE INSPIRING ADVICE SO GRAB YOUR FAVOURITE PAIR OF LOUNGEWEAR/PJS AND SIT BACK AND RELAX WITH A MINI ROLL IN ONE HAND AND A SCREEN IN ANOTHER HAND AND LISTEN LOUD AND CRYSTAL CLEAR 'DON'T TAKE IT PERSONALLY WHEN PEOPLE THINK YOU'RE NOT LISTENING TO THEM AND THEY GIVE YOU A HUGE RANT JUST DON'T GIVE A FEW SHITS AND IGNORE IT UNTL YOU CAN FEEL AS RELAXED AS POSSIBLE AND THERE'S ABSOLOUTELY NO NEED TO STRESS YOURSELVES OUT ABOUT IT CUZ AT THE END OF THE DAY IT'S NOT ABOUT THE PERSON WHO'S GOTTEN UPSET CUZ YOU'RE TOO BUSY DOING YOUR OWN STUFF IT'S ABOUT YOU BEING ABLE TO PICK AND CHOOSE WHO YOU CARE/THINK ABOUT 24/7 SO DON'T GO DOWNHILL AND START CRYING ALL THE TIME CUZ YOU HAVE TO BE AS TOUGH AS A ROCK TOWARDS THAT PERSON AND THEY'LL LEAVE YOU ALONE' OOH THIS WAS TOO MUCH ALL AT ONCE BUT PEOPLE TRY TO LOOK OUT FOR YOU BUT IT GOES WRONG SOMETIMES AND THEN YOU MIGHT NOT LIKE THAT PERSON TOO MUCH SO IT'S GOOD TO BE ONE OR TWO STEPS AHEAD OF ANOTHER PERSON WHILE THEY'RE COMMUNICATING WITH YOU EVEN IF THEY DON'T LIKE THE FACT THAT YOU'RE CUTTING INTO THE CONVERSATION WITH YOUR POINTS OF VIEW THEN THEY'RE LIKE DON'T JUMP IN THE CONVO AND YOU'RE LIKE BRO A CONVERSATION WORKS TWO WAYS NOT JUST ONE. ANYWAY I'LL STOP RANTING AND LAY DOWN SOME MORE AWE-INSPIRING JAW DROPPING ADVICE FOR Y'ALL SO GRAB YOUR FAVOURITE HOODIES AND JOGGERS AND SIT BACK AND RELAX AGAINST THOSE BLANKETS AND PILLOWS AND LISTEN LOUD AND CRYSTAL CLEAR 'IT DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU'RE LOOKING OUT FOR NUMBER ONE SOMETIMES CUZ YOU HAVE TO SOMETIMES YOU JUST NEED TO INDULGE IN YOUR ME TIME AND FORGET ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE CUZ GIVING A SHIT CAN BE DRAINING AND STRESSFUL ESPECIALLY IF PEOPLE THINK YOU'RE NOT GRATEFUL IF THEY LOOK AFTER YOU WHEN DEEP DOWN YOU ACTUALLY ARE SO THANKDUL FOR THEIR HELP AND SUPPORT SO THAT'S WHY YOU'VE GOTTA PROTECT YOUR FRONT BACK AND SIDES SOMETIMES SO YOU CAN JUST BE YOUR OWN CRAZY INDIVIDUAL SELF WITHOUT ANYONE CRITICIZING YOU ABOUT IT' OK I'LL STOP RAMBLING NOW AND LET YOU GUYS CHEW ON THAT BIT OF ADVICE FOR NOW. I JUST THINK THAT EVERY NOW AND THEN YOU'RE NOT CARING ABOUT THEM JUST CUZ YOU FORGET ABOUT THEIR CONDITION I ALMOST  LEANT AGAINST A PREGNANT PERSON'S PILLOW ONCE AND GOT TOLD BUT I DIDN'T THINK TOO MUCH OF IT SINCE IT WAS A LITTLE MISTAKE THAT COULD BE TAKEN BACK. THAT WAS A HUGE MOUNTAINFUL OF ADVICE WHICH NEEDS TO BE EMBEDDED IN LIFE CUZ IT'S NOT THE BEST THING WHEN SOMEONE'S BREATHING DOWN YOUR NECK MOST OF THE TIME AND TAKING YOU TO TELLINGVILLE AND BACK EVEN IF THEY USE THE MARCUS EATON LINE FROM DIVERGENT 'IT'S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD' SOMETIMES THE THINGS THAT ARE FOR YOUR OWN GOOD ARE NOT REALLY GOOD THEY COULD AFFECT YOU IN MANY WAYS THAT ARE NOT VERY RESOURCEFUL IN LIFE. OK I'LL LEAVE YOU WITH ALL THIS ADVICE TO THINK OVER AND CHEW ON/ RELATE TO SO BYE FOR NOW

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