IMPERFECTION IN DOING A GREAT JOB AT SOMETHING

 Hey Creative Geniuses,

In the Asian Diaspora we try and do a task to the best of our ability, but it's questioned and doubted, well asked about not doubted as it comes across in that way. What is perfection and how can you have it when it isn't even a real thing? That's the unanswered question that should be answered in that big beast of a machine of a brain, but we can't comprehend this idea of being a perfect person. Then comes the red hot fiery rage of having enough and just wanting to be valued as a contributor in lending a helping hand to the room or place you're in. Why can't we be given the invisible pat on the shoulder for going like the flash to do what you've been asked to do? This level of raising the bar of perfection high as the sky is impossible to reach, so we crave the gratitude and the attention to wanna do better than the people who were here before but left to grab opportunity by the hand in another country. We wanna be recognised as being able to amount to the level of perfection that they've left behind like the footsteps in the sand that we only dream to follow when we're digging our trench of imperfections from here to no-man's-land. You try and be on their level, but it's too hard when you're just trying to be the unique, creative, individual, iconic, one-of-a-kind person. You have that full boss like energy that fills a room, but the confidence you once had fades bit by bit like a chisel chipping away granite. It's like that guy from this book I'll Give you the Sun by Jandy Nelson there is this sculptor guy called Guillermo Garcia who was once the 'rock star' of the sculpture world, but while he's creating perfection he destroys it and recreates the sculpture in his own image. 

Okay I'll stop rambling on and on to give y'all some awesome mind-boggling advice. Sit back and relax against those fluffy pillows and blankets. Slide into your favourite pair of loungewear/PJ's/kaftans/hoodies and joggers/t-shirts and shorts. Grab some chocolate to munch on. Listen loud and crystal clear:

'You gotta be locking those emotions of negativity tight like a closed book or a shell that's packed tight so you don't let them spill over at the fact of not being good enough in the Asian Diaspora. Be like that Gringotts vault of info that you gotta be on the daily, but be able to rant about this as much as you can 'cuz being able to let the roar of the crashing waves of your voice getting lost in a storm isn't what you want to achieve no matter how much of a ditch of trouble you're digging until it turns into a trench or the quicksand that you can't quite escape from.'

Yeesh! Some awesome bits of advice there, but heavy like bricks weighing down on you like a mountain, you gotta climb up that mountain and figure out which direction you wanna head in to be able to keep being your REAL authentic self in the long line of female warriors that you look up to in the Asian Diaspora. So getting back to the topic at hand of not being able to reach this impossibly high bar of expectation that's heading itno the cloud of imagination turned into a fascination, and being way too nice without that boss like energy that makes you rude and unapproachable like a prickly cactus. It's a tactic to have EL CAPO/JEFE energy so people cannot use the big heartedness and caring too strong or deeply and passionately about a thing can make you a target for being too easy going and laid back. Yeah those are all positive qualities and you can have them on the down low and only take them out for the people you trust on another level unconditionally like your day ones and your confidantes in this world. 

OOH. That was some mad chunk of a paragraph that shook y'all to the core right? I'll get back to giving some awe inspiring advice. Sit back and relax as your brains soak up the legendary words. Slide into your favourite pair of loungewear/PJ's/kaftans/hoodies and joggers/t-shirts and jeans. Grab some of your go to crisps to gobble. Listen loud  and crystal clear:

'All these questions and doubts about yourself that are told to you take away the bricks of your confidence bit by bit it's like chiselling the awesomeness of yourself away until you're moulded into something dimmer than what you were before. You should be brightening your light and confidence by looking on the inside to re-invent yourself to the best original version.  Be able to regulate yourself with all them techniques you have under your belt.'

Sheesh! Some awesome advice and guidance there. It's about recognising the double standards in the genderism of a male and female in the Asian Diaspora from the elders in the community so you can tackle them from your personal perspective. Anyway, back to the main topic at hand your flaws and things that make you real instead of superhuman in a person's windows to the soul. (In some basic terms it's talking about eyes cuz they have a whole other language that speaks volumes that give a deeper insight to a persons complexities than we can imagine if they're going through a thing in life when they're putting up the ivy covered walls as high as the sky for a little while.)  It's about figuring out where you stand in this invisible line drawn in the sand on the battlefield of wills. Is it about taking initiative or proving a person wrong? Is it wise to question the stereotypes of the diaspora? Vocalising all the issues that you're observing while you're trying to do your best at something to achieve greatness is difficult if you're getting scrutinised in a way when you're just trying to do it without being in another person's shadow cuz you wanna make your own shadows in the light.

Okay I rambled on for way too long there. I'm gonna lay down some more awe-inspiring jaw dropping advice now. Sit back and relax against those comfy chairs or recliners. Slide into your favourite pair of loungewear/PJ's/kaftans/hoodies and joggers/t-shirts and shorts. Grab a bowl of popcorn to munch on and listen loud and crystal clear:

'Regulating yourself is super difficult within the maze of your brain as it's short-circuiting with billons of thoughts every five seconds, so stop and take a breath. Fill your lungs with the air of relaxation and let out a sigh or two, and it's a calming thing rather than using it for the 'tude or disrespecting a figure of authority in life. Maybe you're trying to reign in the lava a little bit and just be cool as a cucumber right? Being able to keep the mind wide open to positivity is a step in the right direction.'

Whoa. Some awesome words of wisdom there. Being able to rekindle the flame of self-esteem and high confidence takes time and a great deal of effort when you get a few pegs taken off the scale of being back to a billion and one percent of being okay or normal in your own definition of the word. Okay I'll leave y'all with one last little nugget of advice so listen loud and crystal clear:

'Bring back that spark of sass and boss energy when you're at the lowest level of anxiety and panic. Bring back the bubbly personality which you once had which was full of boss energy and fearlessness of being confident and unapologetically you in the best sense of who you are as the person you're meant to be and who you wanna be which is a good upstanding person in the eyes of yourself and others. Be able to recognise self-improvement and self-assuredness in yourself to build yourself up from the callous cracks of the ground until you're whole and have all the pieces of the puzzle in front of you.'

I'll leave y'all to chew on that one. I'll give you one last quote along the lines of:

'Life's a game and we're all gamblers.'- Georgia Miller.

Enjoy.

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